Background and overview

I learnt more about the health system from being an inpatient than I had in 20 years of working as a neuropsychologist. I was unexpectedly diagnosed with two brain tumours on 4/9/13. They turned out to be grade IV Gliomas (glioblastoma multiforme (GBM)). After removal of the right parietal and left occipital tumours, I received the standard treatment under the Stupp protocol (combined Temozolamide (TMZ) and conformal radiotherapy 5 days/week for 6 weeks), but the TMZ had to be ceased after 5 weeks because I had started to develop pancytopenia, where more than one of my blood counts had begun to drop. By Christmas 2013, I had become anaemic and needed a couple of blood transfusions. I ended up in hospital for 3 weeks of the 2014 new year after experiencing my first seizure (suggestive of a right temporal lobe focus) on 31/12/13). They were so worried about my bone marrow, they did a biopsy. Luckily, it was all clear of any nasty disorders. It had just been suppressed by the TMZ My blood counts slowly returned to normal with daily injections of GCSF, which stimulate bone marrow function, for several months. For 17 months I was doing better each day, without any physical impairments or major cognitive problems A third brain tumour was found in the right temporal lobe on 2/1/15, and removed 6/1/15, only to reappear on 17/2/15 after I started to feel vague symptoms at the end of 2014. I had my 4th round of brain surgery on 1/3/15, followed by stereotaxic radio surgery of a residual, inoperable, tumour, on 17/4/15. I've been feeling like my old self again since that highly precise form of radiotherapy, and it feels fabulous.

My way of coping.
I choose to live in hope that everything will work out for the best. I've learnt that even though things are sometimes unpleasant, life and love go on forever. I put my faith in the life force that created and unites us all in love, across all time, space, and dimensions. I refuse to succumb to fear, which is an invention of our imaginations. There are an infinite number of things to fear, both in this world an in our imaginations, and most of them never eventuate. I choose not to dwell on them, and to focus instead on counting my many blessings, current and past, and to have faith and hope that if I look after the present moment, the future will look after itself.

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Thursday, 19 June 2014

Wise words on evaluating information, beliefs, and knowledge.

Thanks to my old friend Debbie Ling for sharing these wise words with me. A lot of this resonates with the literature on clinical decision-making, and what philosophers say about logical thinking and the scientific method. I get excited when similar recommendations come from diverse sources - it suggests, to me at least, that they reveal basic  truths about our world

Kalama Sutta

Do not simply believe what you hear just because you have heard it for a long time

Do not follow tradition blindly merely because it has been practiced in that way for many generations

Do not be quick to listen to rumours

Do not confirm anything just because it agrees with your scriptures

Do not foolishly make assumptions

Do not abruptly draw conclusions by what you see and hear

Do not be fooled by outward appearances

Do not hold on tightly to any view or idea just because you are comfortable with it

Do not accept as fact anything that you yourself find to be logical

Do not be convinced of anything out of respect and deference to your spiritual teachers

You should go beyond opinion and belief.  You can rightly reject anything which when accepted, practiced and perfected leads to more aversion, more craving and more delusion.  They are not beneficial and are to be avoided.

Conversely, you can rightly accept anything which when accepted and practiced leads to unconditional love, contentment and wisdom.  These things allow you time and space to develop a happy and peaceful mind.

This should be your criteria on what is and what is not the truth; on what should be and what should not be the spiritual practice.

THE BUDDHA.


Another summary of it from Wikipedia:

The Kalama Sutta states:

   Do not go upon what has been acquired by repeated hearing,
   nor upon tradition,
   nor upon rumor,
   nor upon what is in a scripture,
   nor upon surmise,
   nor upon an axiom,
   nor upon specious reasoning,
   nor upon a bias towards a notion that has been pondered over,
   nor upon another's seeming ability,
   nor upon the consideration, 

"The monk is our teacher." [emphasis added]
   Kalamas, when you yourselves know: "These things are good; these things are not blamable; these things are praised by the wise; undertaken and observed, these things lead to benefit and happiness," enter on and abide in them.'

Thus, the Buddha named ten specific sources which knowledge should not be immediately viewed as truthful without further investigation to avoid fallacies:

   Oral history
   Traditional
   News sources
   Scriptures or other official texts
   Suppositional reasoning
   Philosophical dogmatism
   Common sense
   One's own opinions
   Experts
   Authorities or one's own teacher

Instead, the Buddha says, only when one personally knows that a certain teaching is skillful, blameless, praiseworthy, and conducive to happiness, and that it is praised by the wise, should one then accept it as true and practice it. Thus, as stated by Soma Thera, the Kalama Sutta is just that; the Buddha's charter of free inquiry:
     The instruction of the Kalamas (Kalama Sutta) is justly famous for its encouragement of free inquiry; the spirit of the sutta signifies a teaching that is exempt from fanaticism, bigotry, dogmatism, and intolerance.[4]     

However, as stated by Bhikkhu Bodhi, this teaching is not intended as an endorsement for either radical skepticism or as for the creation of unreasonable personal truth:
     On the basis of a single passage, quoted out of context, the Buddha has been made out to be a pragmatic empiricist who dismisses all doctrine and faith, and whose Dhamma is simply a freethinker's kit to truth which invites each one to accept and reject whatever he likes.[5]